Awak.
Saya nampak awak dah bahagia sekarang.
Dah happy.
Dah bangkit dari kejatuhan.
Dan saya, happy untuk awak jugak.
Betul. Sungguh.
Cuma belum dizahirkan.
Mungkin kerana belum punya kesempatan dek kekangan waktu dan kemudahan.
Tapi cukup awak tahu bahawa saya cukup gembira utk awak.
As a person that see you when you were up, then you fall, and rise again from the ground-- tak terkata gembira itu.
Tapi.
Ada tapinya.
Saya faham, bila kita gembira, kita rasa nak tunjuk.
Saya faham itu. Sebab saya sendiri buat juga.
Rasa nak bgtahu satu dunia, bahawasanya kita tgh happy.
Rasa nak mereka tahu bahawa kita juga punya bahagia.
Tak salah. Tak.
Tapi kita takut.
Takut ada yg ambil kesempatan.
Takut ada yg membuat cerita.
Takut ada yg berhasad dengki.
Like how people did to you before.
Manusia. Kita tak tahu bila mereka akan berpaling dan melangkah dari kita.
Today, s/he might be your bestfriend.
Tomorrow, s/he might be your biggest enemy.
We'll never know.
I might be showing off a bit, but that was because I've never learnt from an experience since I don't have one.
And I hope I wont have one.
But you, you have your past.
Learn from that.
Don't fall for the second time from the very same cliff. Don't.
So I heard that you're starting new.
Great.
With a new one from your class.
Nice.
But be careful.
It might be nice. But it might be hard too.
I've had quite some bad experiences with these "in the same class" partners.
I hope yours wont be in the list.
Really, please don't be one.
I read your published-but-revert-to-draft-or-might-be-deleted post.
A bit of it.
Sbb ada dalam dashboard.
And I knew deep down you realise this.
Awak.
Cebisan ini bukanlah bingkisan kemarahan.
Bukan jua bingkisan cemburu mahupun hasad dengki.
But this piece is from my heart-- as your friend.
Saya taknak awak jatuh lagi.
Saya taknak awak menangis lagi.
Saya taknak awak jadi mangsa orang lain lagi.
Saya taknak.
Manusia.
Hari ini memuji.
Esok esok bila dah muak memuji, mungkin ada yg akan mengeji.
Ini cuma ingatan. Terserah pada yang menilai.
Kerana siapalah aku, untuk memberi nasihat dan pandangan.
Aku juga punya khilaf.
Tapi ini dari pandangan aku.
Yang memandang, dari jauh.
Awak.
Jaga diri.
Now you have that one person to take care of you.
I hope there's no reason for you to cry any more.
Smile. Laugh. Live your life.
Be happy.
All in all, good luck and all the best.
You know I'm always here.
xx,
Zaty (:
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