Aku.

Apebenda entah aku nak tulis.

Aku pun tak tahu.

Tapi rasa nak update blog.

Mengada kan?

Pffftt.

Bukan nak cerita pasal biodata.

Bukan.

Aku bukan nya artis mahupun hotstuff yg org nak tahu pasal aku.

Cuma.

For this past few weeks.

I've realised something.

Berkaitan perangai aku.

Sebenarnya dah lama sedar tp ego and sekarang baru nak mengaku.

Aku perasan.

Kalau bab menasihati org yg aku ambik kisah.

Yang aku sayang.

Yang aku rasa penting.

Aku rasa aku cepat je nak marah.

Cepat je rasa nak membebel.

Mmg aku short-tempered pun.

Cepat je nak marah.

Cepat je nak melenting.

Cepat je rasa geram.

Tapi aku jenis cepat marah cepat cool.

Nasib baik.

Entah la.

Aku mmg jenis kalau dah rasa sayang, rasa org tu penting, mmg aku akan ambik kisah.

Mungkin dia tak tahu.

Tak perasan.

The thing is, I want the best.

The best you guys can get out of your life.

Aku tak suka bila ada kawan aku sedih.

Bila ada kawan aku depressed. Frust. Kecewa.

Anything that is not good-- you name it.

Kalau ada rasa aku macam marah ke kasar ke bila aku nasihat korang tu;

Aku mintak maaf.

Truly, deeply from the heart.

Perangai ni mmg susah nak ubah.

Tp aku cuba.

Dan dah berjaya, sikitlah. 2% mungkin?

Macam dah melalut je.

Dah lah. 

Bye.

xx,

Zaty/Pinat/Kaklong

walk with me? (:

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Jangan Kecewa.

Kita manusia.

Tugas kita hanya menyampaikan.

Bukanlah memberi hidayah.

Bukan membuka hati.

Jadi jika kamu merasa lelah dalam menyampaikan tetapi apa yg disampaikan itu tidak diterima oleh yg lain, sabar.

Jangan kecewa.

Jangan putus asa.

Kerana yg memberi hidayah itu bukan kita.

Kerana yg memegang hati itu bukan kita.

Tetapi Allah SWT.

"Penat ahh aku nasihat dia ni. Bukannya nak dengar. Bukannya nak berubah. Lantak dia lah!"

Kadang2 kita mcm ni kan. 

Aku pun sama. 

Kadang2 terdetik mcm ni.

Rasa penat.

Rasa dah malas nak tolong.

Rasa macam "lantak dia lah nak jatuh ke apa. Degil sangat."

Tapi cuba bayangkan kalau org lain pun fikir mcm ni dekat kita.

Kalau org pun give up nak nasihat dekat kita sebab kita terlampau degil.

Org putus asa dekat kita.

Dan akhirnya kita hanyut sendiri. 

Sedih, kan?

Tapi yg dinasihat tu janganlah sombong sgt taknak dengar langsung org cakap apa. Pfftt.

Gambar ihsan Google

xx,

Zaty (:

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Awak, cebisan ini untuk awak.

Awak.

Saya nampak awak dah bahagia sekarang.

Dah happy.

Dah bangkit dari kejatuhan.

Dan saya, happy untuk awak jugak.

Betul. Sungguh.

Cuma belum dizahirkan.

Mungkin kerana belum punya kesempatan dek kekangan waktu dan kemudahan.

Tapi cukup awak tahu bahawa saya cukup gembira utk awak.

As a person that see you when you were up, then you fall, and rise again from the ground-- tak terkata gembira itu.

Tapi.

Ada tapinya.

Saya faham, bila kita gembira, kita rasa nak tunjuk.

Saya faham itu. Sebab saya sendiri buat juga.

Rasa nak bgtahu satu dunia, bahawasanya kita tgh happy.

Rasa nak mereka tahu bahawa kita juga punya bahagia.

Tak salah. Tak.

Tapi kita takut. 

Takut ada yg ambil kesempatan.

Takut ada yg membuat cerita.

Takut ada yg berhasad dengki.

Like how people did to you before.

Manusia. Kita tak tahu bila mereka akan berpaling dan melangkah dari kita.

Today, s/he might be your bestfriend. 

Tomorrow, s/he might be your biggest enemy.

We'll never know.

I might be showing off a bit, but that was because I've never learnt from an experience since I don't have one.

And I hope I wont have one.

But you, you have your past.

Learn from that. 

Don't fall for the second time from the very same cliff. Don't.

So I heard that you're starting new.

Great.

With a new one from your class.

Nice.

But be careful.

It might be nice. But it might be hard too.

I've had quite some bad experiences with these "in the same class" partners.

I hope yours wont be in the list.

Really, please don't be one.

I read your published-but-revert-to-draft-or-might-be-deleted post.

A bit of it.

Sbb ada dalam dashboard.

And I knew deep down you realise this.

Awak.

Cebisan ini bukanlah bingkisan kemarahan.

Bukan jua bingkisan cemburu mahupun hasad dengki.

But this piece is from my heart-- as your friend.

Saya taknak awak jatuh lagi.

Saya taknak awak menangis lagi.

Saya taknak awak jadi mangsa orang lain lagi.

Saya taknak.

Manusia.

Hari ini memuji.

Esok esok bila dah muak memuji, mungkin ada yg akan mengeji.

Ini cuma ingatan. Terserah pada yang menilai.

Kerana siapalah aku, untuk memberi nasihat dan pandangan.

Aku juga punya khilaf.

Tapi ini dari pandangan aku.

Yang memandang, dari jauh.

Awak.

Jaga diri.

Now you have that one person to take care of you.

I hope there's no reason for you to cry any more.

Smile. Laugh. Live your life.

Be happy.

All in all, good luck and all the best.

You know I'm always here.

xx,

Zaty (:

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To them-- Thanks.

Fingers running on the keyboard.

Fikirkan tajuk. Susah juga ya fikir tajuk apa untuk entry.

The irony is, I want a title that is simple.

Simple yet meaningful.

Tapi yg simple pun susah nak fikir -_-

Anyway. That doesnt really matters.

"Cause those who matters doesnt care, and those who cares wont matter."

Hiks.

Sebenarnya aku nak ckp pasal ini.

Ini.

Mahkota Parade

Dan ini.

GSC Dataran Pahlawan

Tak. Aku bukan nak cerita pasal kitorg hangout. Tak.

Aku nak cakap pasal mereka.

Mereka siapa? 

Mereka classmates aku.

Dan mereka memeriahkan lagi hidup aku sem ini.

And they make me feels better-- ini jujur dari hati.

Truthfully, I'm not really good in making friends.

"Nak ke diorg kawan dgn aku, aku bukan lawa pun." -- serious, ini yg selalu ada dlm hati aku before aku tegur siapa siapa.

Ya ya, I know people say, its heart that matters. 

Tapi itu mmg aku. Aku kurang keyakinan diri bila dalam bab pergaulan. Dengan perempuan.

Dengan lelaki, I dont really care what they say.

Sbb bukan boleh pillow talk dgn diorg pun, kan?

Sem lepas, aku makan sosorg depan lappy. Bukak movie, makan.

Sem ni, aku makan dekat bilik kakyu dgn ieza. Bercerita, makan.

Together with Najwa and Salma.

Sem lepas aku kalau keluar kat Melaka ni mesti dgn Sharul.

Walaupun gi Mydin or keluar makan je.

Sem ni aku gi Mydin dgn Salma, Ieza, Kakyu, Najwa, Zira.

Sem ni jugak first time aku pergi Mahkota Parade, Dataran Pahlawan.

Sem lepas tak pernah jejak kaki pergi sports centre. Walaupun teringin gila.

Sem ni aku dah pernah pergi sports centre. Pergi dkt kincir air tu.

Walau sekali. Tapi dah pernah.

Kakyu : Sem ni awak boleh pulak ek lepak dgn kitorg. Sem lepas sombong.

Wuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu mana ada sombong! Kita malu :( 

Too many to write.

But really, I am happier. I really feels better.

Terima kasih. Terima kasih banyak banyak (':

Kita harap takde gaduh gaduh or "drama queen" between us. 

I hope this stays forever.

I really do.

TERIMA KASIH BANYAK BANYAK SALMA, ZIRA,IEZA, NAJWA, KAKYU.

And thanks to Shahrul, Ameir and the gang, Ali and Syahid too. 

These guys are good (:

xx,

Zaty (:

p/s : Lainkali kalau beli beras ke telur ke, bagitahu kita taw. Nak jugak sumbang something. Malulah asyik pergi bilik korang then makan jee wuuuuuuuuuuu :(

pp/s: Kalau baca entry ni, jgn tegur kita psl entry ni. MALU >.< 

pintu bilik pun dah kunci taknak bagi org masuk. Hiks. 

Bye.

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Over.

Overly-attached girlfriend.

I thought I wont be one. 

Or at least I tried to not be one.

I'm not that clinging-all-the-time type;

Nor the NO-YOU-CANNOT-DO-THIS-DO-THAT type;

Not the call-me-every-night-or-else-I-don't-get-to-sleep type.

No I'm not.

I'm the one that need to be informed before you going somewhere.

So I wont worry.

So I'll know where you are.

So I'll know to not disturb you.

And I believed I act that way because of our distance. 

Melaka-Perlis/Pahang-Kedah aint that close, aite? 

(:

Am I overly-attached girlfriend?

I don't know that either.

Would you answer that for me? 

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30 Things in 30 Days Challenge

Kalau rasa takde idea nak update blog, bolehla buat ini (: I used to did this before but only lasts till day 8 I guess. Haha thats sooooo Pinat. Buat benda separuh jalan. 

Ya Allah semoga Nurul Izzaty Syafinaz berubah dan menjadi insan yg lebih baik. Amin. 

Heyy terima kasih yg membaca. Awak dah doakan saya! (:

So these are the lists :
Day 1 — Your favorite song
Day 2 — Your favorite movie 
Day 3 – Your idea of the perfect first date.
Day 4 – Your favorite photograph of your best friend.
Day 5 – What makes you different from everyone else?
Day 6 –  A song to match your mood.
Day 7 –  A photo of an animal you’d love to keep as a pet.
Day 8 –  A picture of your favourite memory
Day 9 –  Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.
Day 10 – A photo of the item you last purchased.
Day 11 –  5 facts about you.
Day 12 –  A photo of something that makes you happy. 
Day 13 – What kind of person attracts you?
Day 14 – Who are you?
Day 15 – A TV show you’re currently addicted to.
Day 16 – Something you don’t leave the house without.
Day 17 – How you hope your future will be like.
Day 18 – 5 things that irritate ME about opposite/same sex
Day 19 – A picture of something you want to do before you die 
Day 20 – The meaning behind your blog name.
Day 21 – A photo of your favorite place to eat.
Day 22 – A letter to someone who has hurt you recently.
Day 23 –  Your dream wedding.
Day 24 – A photo of something that means a lot to you.
Day 25 – Short term goals for this month and why 
Day 26 – A photo of somewhere you want to go.
Day 27 – A picture of your favourite band or artist 
Day 28 – In this past month, what have you learned?
Day 29 – Something you could never get tired of doing.
Day 30 – A photograph of yourself today + three good things that have happened in the past 30 days

That's it. Selamat update blog! (:

p/s : I took this from someone else's blog but I dont remember since it was years ago. It WASNT mine (:

pp/s : Tak baik copy hasil ciptaan org. Copy assignments takpe :p

xx,

Pinat (: 

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123 I miss you.

Am writing this post even there's a long lab report to be settled.

Why?

Because I miss you guys.

Too much. 

Too much till I cried reading my own old posts.

It'll be great if you guys were here.

Like old times.

Geez. I sounded like Im somewhere across the sea kan. Mcm jauh sgt padahal masing masing dalam Malaysia lagi.

But I really miss you guys.

Cant wait to see both of you. Both.

p/s : I wanted to write a long post just like I did to Ying before. Lets just wait till I get a better internet connection.

xx,

Pinat (:

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Inspiration.

He's under JPA. Me too. He did it. I can too, right?

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29 Jan 2013.

WARNING : This piece is a note of a date between me and my boyfriend. So kalau rasa nak termuntah, sila lah jangan baca. Aherher I wrote this sebab nak bagi ingat kenangan. Geddit? Good.

29 Januari 2013.

I met him after 5 months yeay :D

Last met, August 2012. Masa raya.

So mmg happy gila ahh kan sbb dah rindu gila gila gila ahh kan.

 k motip la letak perkataan gila banyak kali.

Masa tu cuti sem. Sama sama cuti, so dapat la jumpa. 

Walaupun kejap.

Ya, sehari tu kejap la bg aku.

You guys havent meet for 5 months and one day is all you got.

And its not even 24 hours.

But nevermind. At least I got the chance.

Its better than nothing, kan? (: 

So,

He took a bus all the way from Pendang to Pudu.

Pagi 29 tu dia sampai Pudu. Sebelum subuh camtu. 

Kesian dia. Aku dah gerak dari Jengka pegi KL awal dua hari kot, stay rumah mak usu.

That morning, mak usu gi kerja, aku follow. Naik LRT sampai KL Sentral.

Then I met him, dekat McD KL Sentral. (':

Taktaw nak cakap perasaan tu mcm mana.

Bila kau dah lama xjumpa, then dia ada depan mata. 

Macam tak percaya pun ada.

But its a reality. He was in front of my eyes.

Happy gila. Sangat (':

Breakfast sesama yeay! :D

Lepas breakfast, time tu baru 9 lebih.

Dah setel dia punya Touch n Go semua, kitorg gerak pergi Bandar Tasik Selatan.

Naik ERL. Dia tak pernah naik, so aku bawak la. Haha.

Memang takde hala tuju pun pergi sana. Semata mata nak naik ERL. Baik kan aku? :p

Pakai kad siswa utk ERL dpt diskaun almost 50% taw. Aherher.

Dalam ERL. Ada 'nur' la konon. Wahahaha :p

Lepas sampai sana, tak buat apa pun. Kahkahkah pembaziran masa betul.

Time tu weekdays. Selasa. So mmg tak ramai org. 

Duduk2 je. Borak2. Tunggu LRT. Nak pi Berjaya Times Square. 

Tp baru pukul 10. TS pun baru bukak.

Sampai2, kedai semua baru nak bukak. 

asdfghjkl betul -..-

Kitorg duduk kat McD sementara tgu pukul 11. Nak main boling.

Finally dpt main dengan dia yeayy! :D

walaupun haritu entah kenapa aku jadi loser gila asyik masuk longkang. Teruk gila kot! -..-

Loser gila. Sedap dia gelakkan aku haritu. Ciss! -.-

Main satu round je. Main banyak2 round kang tak sempat nak buat apape plak.

Tapi aku still xpuas hati lah kan sbb kalah teruk sgt. SANGAT. k

Berlagak!

Eh comelnya anak sapa lah ni wkwkwk kbye.

Lepas main boling, terus pergi tgk wyg.

The Last Stand. Alaa yg ada Arnold-susah-nak-eja tu.

BEST!!!! Well aku mmg suka action story so mmg best la kan bg aku. Hee :D

Lepas wayang, kitorg pergi Mid Valley. 

Sebabnya aku teringin nak makan Domino's dan aku xigt kat mana lagi ada Domino's selain Mid.

So dari TS kitorg pergi Mid. Takde shortcut yaw. Kena tukar2 train etc.

Tp seronok apa jalan2 naik public transport dgn kesayangan. Ekeke.

Sampai dekat Mid aku terus beli Dominos. Tako Tao. Dgn few bottles air mineral dkt Jusco.

Ya, minumlah air mineral bebanyak. Tak elok taw minum air manis & bikarbonat/bergas selalu (:

Teehee.

Tunggu Dominos.

Dua org budak xbetul.

Kepala terlebih lentok.

Eh dah elok. Hewhew.

Lepas tu pergi Guardian. Gedik gila mamat ni. Time tu jugak ahh nak guna baucer Guardian grr.

Carik2 barang yg dia nak, takde. So xjadi beli. Cettt.

Lepas tu terus gerak pergi KLCC.

Naik ktm. Engko taw jela KTM tu cemana LAJUNYA. Berzaman nak tunggu!

Mungkin moto "ontime, everytime" tu dah boleh tukar kot =.=

Ohh tadi tu tak makan taw. Kitorg tapau. Hewhew.

Sampai KLCC terus cari Guardian. Carik barang, tak jumpa jugak. Aku nampak Auntie Anne's tp Ying tak bg beli. Jangan tamak katanya. k :(

Dalam pada kecewa tu, aku ajak dia pergi dekat KLCC Park.

Sebab dulu kitorg pernah lepak situ.

And yes. Kitorg makan kat situ. Ala ala berkelah. Hewhew.

Best. Serious. Dgn berangin semua. 

Mcm kt tepi pantai walaupun sebenarnya kau duduk atas rumput depan KLCC. Haha (:

Mula mula cuak jugak kot sbb takut xleh makan kt situ. Dibuatnya xboleh, kang tetiba main aci kejar dgn guard plak. Tapi nasib baik xda org kacau. Hee.

Two regular pizzas. A box of Tako Tao (:

Dia lapar sgt. Kesian. 

Tak pandang kiri kanan dah. Muehehe

Sambil makan sambil borak. Luahan perasaan etc.

Yela bukan senang nak dapat berborok depan mata taww. 

Seronok (:

Orang lain berjoging, kami makan. Huahuahua.

Seronok seronok pun, aku asyik tgk jam. Masa tu dah 5 lebih.

Tiket dia pkul 11.

Dan kau tahu, tak banyak masa dah utk kau org. Sad, isnt it?

Kalau kau org tak sedih pun peduli apa aku. Aku sedih :( 

That evening.

Eh dah senja. Cantik (:

Masa tu ada pameran kereta F1. Dan pameran model lulz.

Dia boleh ckp "jap lagi tlg amik gambar org dgn kereta dgn perempuan2 tu eh."

Podahh cettt -.-

Nampak mcm aku sandar kt dia kan? Padahal aku
kt belakang dia. Pendek sgt ke aku :(

Jgn harap nak amik dgn model huahuahua

Aku takpe. Aherher.

Kalini xde cameraman so gambar berdua semua
 kena camwhore sobs.

Sbnrnya time tu tunggu mak usu keluar ofis. Mak usu balik lmbat that day. 8 lebih baru dia keluar ofis.

Saja bagi peluang ke apa, aku taktawu la. Tp thanks mak usu bg extra time :*

Dlm pukul 8, kitorg gerak la naik LRT dari KLCC pergi Setiawangsa. 

Kat sana tgu mak usu. Dlm 9 lebih baru mak usu sampai.

Then I have to watch him board the train to Pudu.

Sedih :'(

Last camwhore sementara tgu LRT.

Eh ada lagi. 

Okay serious last. 

So thats the day. Nothing we did yg extra ordinary.

But it was fun. It still is, for me (:

Lepas ni entah bila pula nak jumpa. 

Guess I just can wait (:

Dear you,

You are my Superman. My Man. Thanks for being with me for almost 4 years. Thanks for staying (:

Baju dia ada lambang Superman
sebenarnya. Haha :p

Terima kasih sebab selalu buat saya gelak. And thats the main reason why I chose to be with you pun 4 years ago. Because you made me laugh (: 

Terima kasih untuk 29 Januari 2013. Terima kasih banyak banyak (: 

Till we meet again,

Dzaty2410

XX

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Kembali.

Ececeh. 

Haha.

Wkwkwk.

k, stop pinat. Stop.

******

Assalamualaikum.

Hee.

Sebenarnya takda apa pun. Saje je. 

Aherher.

Sbnrnya kita nak ckp yg kita akan berblog balik dgn selalu insyaAllah sebab ade internet laju.

Hoorayyy!

Okay, nobody cares pun sebenarnya.

Tapi biarlah, blog aku.

Hewhew.

K tu je bye.

XX

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Letih.

Aku letih.
Letih dgn kerenah manusia.
Letih nak jaga hati org lain.
Letih nak jaga hati sendiri.
Letih nak berpura pura aku okay.
Letih.

How I wish to be ignorant.
Where I dont have anything to think but me.
Even if its just for a day.
But, its kinda impossible. (Ke aku yg tak nak? Entah.)

Aku xtahu nak cerita pd siapa. Sbb kalau cerita pun belum tentu org faham.

Aku cuma nak org tahu yg aku, letih :)

p/s : Kalau aku xkacau hidup kau, tolonglah jangan kacau hidup aku. Kalini aku diam. Lainkali, aku buat kau menyesal. Ya, kau belum kenal aku :)

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